I'm back...

Hello Kings and Queens, 

I hope you all are doing well. It's been awhile right? Well, good news...I'm Back!! I have said this a couple times; sometimes we need to take a step back and remind ourselves who we are, and where we come from. You guys know that I'm always honest with y'all, Not to seek attention or anything but I was distance because I was going through a hard time and I can't lie still am. But what made me come back was the comments/compliments I get about my blog. So I told myself I need to stop being selfish and get back to writing my thoughts/stories down and let God handle the storm I am in. I know some people are going to ask "What's going on" and if "I'm ok" so I'm just going to go ahead and explain just a little. First, I am okay guys. Y'all know this! I leave/give everything to God (No worries). Life has been just teaching me lessons left and right. Three lessons I have learned is 1) Don't worry about things you can't control. 2) What you allow will continue. 3) You control your thoughts and emotions. Whenever I go through a hard time I like to be distance. I don't like hanging with my friends, I don't like texting/talking to people. I just want to be left alone and I'm learning that it won't always go that way. I'm looking forward to new blessings and change. I'm excited for what's to come. Just a little update: I recently got business cards (Thank you Mia) I love them. I'm working on getting back to youtube, I'm also working on making more of my own clothes and clothes for others. 

-Thanks for sticking by me guys and thank you for the beautiful comments. Much love, Peace, & Respect

~Kennedi M

Keep your eye on God

Life will hit you when you don't even expect it too. It sometimes causes you too be lost and not knowing what to do. But that's when you call on God. You talk to him and tell him exactly how you feel. I was talking to a friend one day and I told her to call on God and her response was "I haven't talked to him in so long I can't talk to him." I let her know that God is a forgiving God. I have had moments in my life when I was going through the storm and wouldn't call on God, I wouldn't even pray because of the things I had done. But one day I wanted to change my life around I called on him and I told him everything I was feeling. I told him everything I had to say. I asked him for strength, forgiveness, and patience. I reminded myself that even though I prayed it's not on my time but on God's time. I reminded myself that my God will make a way. He will give me what I need not everything that I want. I reminded myself that my road may be difficult but one touch from God, everything will be alright. If you are afraid of talking to God because of certain things you have done in your life I'm telling you that God is a forgiving God. Ask him to forgive you. You have to start somewhere. Also, understand that even though we want things to change in a second it's not. Understand that we think God isn't doing anything and not helping when really his doing something big. Keep your eye on God and everything will be alright. 

-Kennedi M. 

That's Your Woman...

Young Men and Men...

 Respect your woman, you need to make sure she feels safe and feels loved. She needs to feel beautiful and feel that you're there for her not just to be there but there because you care and because you want to have a future with her, you want to make memories with her. Make your woman feel special. Don't just look on the outside but look on the inside. Tell her she's beautiful inside and out, and mean it. Understand that she isn't perfect and neither are you. Your woman will have flaws but it's ok because we all do. Accept her for who she is, and don't let her feel any less of herself.
 When she needs a shoulder to cry on, be there to wrap your arms around her and let her know that everything will be ok. Remind her the positive things and motivate her. When you have disagreements, listen to each other and work it out. Understand what a "Relationship" is, and know that no relationship is perfect. When your down, your woman will be there and when she's down you will be the man, and catch her when she falls. Love her curves, the texture of her hair, love the shape of her lips and the shape of her face. That's your woman, love her and appreciate her.
-Kennedi M.

Forgiveness

I know forgiveness like no other. 

I have forgave so many people in my life. 

but, trust me at first I didn't want to.

I had to learn that in order to move on in life and be happy, you have to forgive the person.

I know what it feels like to be stab in your back by someone you care about and love. 

I know what it feels like to just want to hate the person. You just want to wish bad on them.

But you can't move on in life when you are still basically holding on to the past. You can't move on in life when you have hate in your heart or your upset about something. You have to forgive! I'm not saying forget because I know for myself, I won't forget what some people have done to me, but I can't hold on to that stuff and be upset/mad forever. I never know when my time is coming.  

I know people have done some messed up stuff that it's hard to forgive, I know some of y'all want a "sorry"  from people that you won't probably never get. You just have to let that go. 

-Kennedi M. 

The Devil is a Lie

The devil is always trying to bring us down, he wants us to think nothing but that life is hard. We sometimes let him take control instead of leaving everything up to God and letting him take control. Basically we sometimes let the Devil win and don't even notice it. I know that I sometimes let him win because I start believing thoughts. Don't get me wrong life can be hard but life can always be a blessing. Life isn't going to always be right and perfect but you have to focus on the positive. Whenever we do try to focus on the positive things about life the devil try's to bring us down and makes us think life is so hard when really God is just getting us ready for a blessing. You have to ignore those thoughts and keep your eye on God. You never know what blessing is coming your way. I always say this, "Practice your faith." When you have faith in The Lord things will be better I promise. You have to be able to trust him with everything. Whatever situation you're going through right now. I want you to do my favorite thing and that's pray and let go and let God. Don't expect everything to change for the better seconds after you pray because it's only on God's timing. When I say let go and let God I mean let him handle it. You did all you can and that's pray about it, now just let him take control and fix everything on his timing. God has a way of working everything out.

-Kennedi M.

They come and go

Something I learned over the weekend was, you can't depend on anyone. And you can't think that everyone is going to be there forever. No matter how much you have been there for the person, you have to accept that people come and go. We may not like it and it may hurt but maybe God is preparing us for something. I used to tell people things that were on my mind, things I was going through, feelings I was feeling and ect. But I also learned that no one will understand unless they have been through that situation or felt the way I was feeling. You also can't trust a lot of people. Whenever I have a problem I don't tell my business to anyone anymore, I go to God and talk to him. His the one who will be there all the time. I'm not saying that talking to someone is a bad thing or you shouldn't do it, but just be careful who you share it with and what you say. Some things are your business and only your business. 

-Kennedi M. 

Rest In Peace Daddy

Dear Daddy, I miss you so much. I sometimes don't understand why you're not here but I know everything happens for a reason. I wish I could get my king back to hug, to talk to, to tell him "I love you" I wish you were here to teach me how to drive, watch me go to homecoming, watch me play golf and play along with me. I wish you could see me sew so whenever your button on your suit falls off or your suit is too big or small I can fix it. I wish you could watch me cheer, watch the girls throw me in the air and you being scared they are going to drop your baby girl. I miss you! I wish you could show me how a man should be and how to treat a woman. I wish I could give you a present on Father's Day, your birthday and Christmas. I wish you were here to motivate me and keep me going in school. I wish you were here to see all the amazing things I have done so far. I wish you were here so I could have a shoulder to cry on through the hard times. This day is hard because it's supposed to just be a normal day it's suppose to be the beginning of August but it's the day you got shot. I miss you daddy and I'm going to try my best to make you and Mommy proud. I love you! 

-Your baby girl! ❤️

Our God is able

When we get in tough situations we have to practice faith. Having faith that God got you and will always be there for you. Our God is able, he has us covered. If you can't stand then kneel. I know life can get hard, so so hard and it's hard to give it all to God. But Pray and let go. Don't worry about what other people think, never let anyone have that much control over you. You ask God for help because they don't know where you came from. Understand that when your going through a hard time people like to point it out and bring you down even more but those people aren't happy with themselves. If anything your friends should be encouraging you to read your bible, to talk to god, and pray. Some people don't like you and don't even know why they don't like you. Those people you distance yourself from. Life is precious, it's a gift from God. Appreciate every moment of it because you never know. A minute, hour, day, month, or year isn't a promise. 

Kennedi M. 

The way we look and feel about life

There's a morning and there's a night. There's a light and there's a dark. When it storms it becomes dark but when the storm is over you begin to see light, sometimes even a rainbow. It will change dark to light very slow and sometimes it will take till the next day for it to be 100% light. You know that hard time your going through? Let me think...isn't it called a storm? Well have you ever looked at it like day and night or when we have storms. Yes all you see is darkness it's like everything around you is dark, but you know it won't be dark forever right? Life isn't easy, it's not supposed to be. Life is difficult and you just have to accept that. Any storm you're going through learn something about it so you can grow and became a stronger person. You can't run away from your problems because they will stay, they will remain. I want you guys to do me a favor. One day I want you guys to get a photo of just you when you were a kid smiling or happy. I want you to look at that photo for 10 seconds. The person looking at that photo, isn't it the same person as the person on the photo? You were happy then so why can't you be happy now? Yes, as we get older there comes more responsibly. But with every situation you have to find something positive about it. I want you to stop looking at life as being hard, and stressful, and depressing and look at it as a gift and look at the positive things that happened in your life. When you look at life differently it helps you to think more positive. The world is always changing so we have to be willing to change with it as well. 

-Kennedi M. 

"You matter" (Old post)

I don't care what the people at school said, the people you worked with said, your cousins, your mom or dad, your sister or brother I don't care! I'm letting YOU know right now that "YOU MATTER." You can't let other people define you, you have to define yourself and know that YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH! Your not on this earth for no reason it's a purpose that you are here. Stop letting what people say get in your head. Listen to what God thinks of you. He looks at the heart, he won't ever judge you. You may feel like it's you against the world when it's NOT. God will put you through things for you to learn and make you stronger. Please understand that your not the only one going through the storm or the situation. Never say you are alone because your not. Don't feel like you need to leave this earth or get away from everyone because you feel that your just walking and no one is noticing you. Someone is noticing you rather you think it or not. Go look in the mirror, and see your beautiful face or handsome face and tell yourself that "YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH AND YOU DO MATTER" 

~Kennedi M.

Why Me?

- What question do we often ask ourselves? Could it be "Why Me?" Does that one sound familiar? In my personal OPINION, when we ask ourselves that question, it gives the feeling that we're the only ones going through that "situation". You may feel like it's you against the world, or your alone and you have no one there for you but the truth is you're not alone. You're not the only one whose been through what you're going through. Now let me clear this up; because your probably thinking "Well Kennedi we still feel alone because we don't know whose been through the situations we're going through, we don't know the person. But look at it like this, have you ever sat down with a friend or family member and found someone you realize you have so much in common with? And you guys are like "Oh my, I thought I was the only one?" If not, it will happen! Look at the storm your going through like that. Some people feel the same way that you feel and won't open up because they feel like they are alone just like you. Also, think about this...have you been through a tough time before? Do you see yourself still going through that storm? Don't you think you're going to make it through this storm as well? Now the timing may not be the same, it can get tiring and frustrating but you have to hold on. Your situation does not define you. It will make you stronger, and in the future will help you with growing in happiness. Everyone goes through storms and sometimes, trust me I know, it's like storm after storm after storm. But it will help you with demanding respect and understanding life. I wish you all the best and hope this helps someone. Thank you for viewing. 

Kennedi M. 

Have a wonderful day Queens and Kings

Self love

You have to think about yourself. You have to think about how you're feeling, how you're doing. You have to know yourself and make sure you are taken care of. We sometimes put people before ourselves. We see someone down and we just want to take there pain away, we just want to comfort them and let them know that everything is ok. But when we really think about it, Why don't we do these things for ourselves? Why are we willing too do this much for someone but always forget about ourselves?
 I always see these quote "the weakest person is the one who is always willing to help" and I have to say that I agree with this quote. We never put ourselves first, then get upset with ourselves when we have no one around. Learn to love yourself first and then worry about the rest.

-Kennedi M.

"Your Beauty"

Woman,

look at your beauty.

The beauty inside,

look at the beauty that God created.

Look in the mirror and look at the beauty that you own.

The beauty on your face.

Look at the beauty of your skin color. 

The beauty of having a bump on your face or a scar across your face.

Look at the beauty, you been through.

Look inside into your soul and see the beauty you have inside.

You are not perfect and we all have flaws.

But look at the beauty you have.

The thickness or softness of your hair, look at that beauty.

Look at the shape of your breast or the shape of your hips.

Look at the shape of your legs or arms.

Look at the beauty of your small nose or big nose.

Look at the beauty of your eyebrows, rather you have them or not.

Look at the beauty your mother and father created.

You'r different and beautiful, and don't let no one tell you differently. 

-Kennedi M.

Will you allow it?

As I was scrolling through my Instagram I came across a saying that said "what you allow will continue." What does that quote mean?  It means exactly what it says if you allow things to happen like (disrespect) it will continue. This quote can relate to many situations. Us, as people can't be blanched to stand up for ourselves and others. Us, Women need to pay attention to how men treat us and learn to have standards. If you don't like the way someone is treating you, say something. Don't acquiesce it!!! For you young Queens out there, I see a lot of self disrespect. Why do you allow ANYONE to call you a "B-Word?" Do you ladies know what your worth? Don't you know that you are a Queen? Do you ladies know what it means when I or anyone calls you a Queen? Ladies you must respect yourself and your body. You must respect your heart and feelings. Don't allow anyone to disrespect you. If they do, stand up for yourself and say something. If you don't say something the first time they will "CONTINUE."

Thanks for viewing, 

Kennedi M.

Hello!

Hello Everyone, How's you guys week going? 

My week is going better well. I have goals I want to accomplish by the end of the week. I hope you all have goals as well. When you write your goals down don't just write them down then forget about them, really try to accomplish them. This look is pretty simple but classy. I was on my way to church. I been loving this lipstick color I have on my lips from M.A.C. I am wearing holographic nails that I LOVE!! The earrings I have on are feathers. They were in style a few years ago, but I wear what I want!! I love the detail on my dress and the color on me, so of course I had to pair it with some nude heels! :) 

Thanks for viewing! 

-Kennedi M.

*Personal Message*

I just want to point out that I made this blog to inspire people, for someone to have someone to relate to, to write my thoughts down, to help people get through the day, and remind them that God is there. When I share personal post its for someone to relate to, it's for someone who feels alone, I just want them to know they are not the only ones going through that situation. I don't come on here to write for attention, I don't come on here to brag. I just want to see more Queens happy and loving theirselves. I'm 16 years old and All I want to do is help people and do what I love and that's writing. Please respect what I post! 

*Thank you everyone who shared my blog or checked it out.*

Thanks for viewing, 

Kennedi M. 

Someone trying to have power over you...

Some people have came into my life and tried to control me, have power over me. They have put negative thoughts in my head. People that was close to me have hurt me. Destroyed me, tried to tell me who I was and what my future holds. They have tried to get me out of my character. But...

I also have people who have been here for me and motivate me, encourage me and keep me going. In life we have people who try to bring us down because of something going on in their life, they are unhappy and want to make someone else unhappy. Those people I will love and respect but will distance myself from them. You can't be happy and enjoy your life with negative people around you. 

One day, I decided that I wasn't going to be around negativity, I was going to change my life around and choose to be happy. Trust me I have my moments when I slip but no one is perfect right? 

What I'm trying to tell you guys is don't surround yourself with negative people. It's ok to distance yourself, you can still love them. I can't see anyone living their life Angry, sad, mad all the time. Choose to be happy!!! Change your life around. Don't stress yourself over the opinion of others. Who defines you? YOURSELF!!!! You define you!!! No one knows you like yourself! 

~Kennedi

Feeling guilt from our past...

We all have a past that we may haven't forgave ourselves from. We all know that feeling of guilt we felt. All we think in our minds is "What was I thinking?" Or "I wish I could take it back." Sound familiar? We think about those thoughts over and over again and may cause us to tear up. Right? We get frustrated with ourselfs and become stress and depressed. You feel like you just want it to all pass. But just a reminder IT'S JUST A TEST!! We forget certain things when we are upset with life, someone, or ourselfs. We forget that EVERYONE makes mistakes, it's a part of life. It's a LESSON LEARNED!

Do you ever feel like it's you against the world when you feel guilt? Do you ever say to yourself "I'm not gone trust nobody?" Let me tell you it's normal. Every once in awhile we get thoughts like that because like I said we are upset with ourselfs because of the mistake we made. We sometimes push other people away when they are trying to help because of the way we feel. We kinda give up on ourselfs and forget that we have God. We forget that he is with us when no one else is. We sometimes forget to pray and let God handle it. 

  I said this in a recently post and I'm going to share it with you guys again. When you are going through a storm/hard time it's ok to step aside, get yourself together than finish your race. Remember to not compare your chapter to no one else's chapter because you don't know there story and what they been through. You focus on yourself and getting through that storm with your head held high. For my Queens (Women) out there I want to say don't let your crown fall. Head held up and focus on getting through that storm. 

-Kennedi M.

*Video for encouragement* Yolanda Adams- Step Aside 

"Young Black Woman"

Hey Queens, I haven't been on here in forever!! I'm Back!!! I have a lot of stuff that I want to do with my blog, youtube, and ect. I'm so excited!

Now…

About this look, I must say this is one of my favorite outfits I have ever wore. The shoes I have on, have been sitting in my closet for about two years and have never been touched. I could never find anything to wear with them. I did always know I wanted to color block with those shoes though. 

One day, I believe I was looking at the pants I have on in my closet for along time, and I kept thinking "What can I wear with those pants?" (Giggles) I pulled the pants out and tried them on, then I just about pulled every shirt in my closet out until I found some that I liked with the pants. The shirt below is what I found. So I spy those shoes in my closet and (DING) I pictured the whole outfit in my head. The shirt, pants, and shoes. The outfit is what I wanted to wear to church, and that day it was a little chilly outside, so I tried the blazer on, and I fell in love with this look completely!! I was feeling so confident and felt like a young woman. I had this purple lip stick on from M.A.C. and it brought out the purple in my shoes. I got dressed up for myself, I put makeup on for myself,  I walked with confidence for myself, and I'm proud to be the person I am. 

Queens wear what you want, wear what makes you feel beautiful and confident, but remember to only do it for yourself and no one else. 

Respect!!

-Kennedi M.

"Love me"

I had to learn to love myself. I had to learn to love the person I was. I had to learn to love my body and accept my flaws. I know no matter what anyone said or the compliments I get, if I don't love me then nothing they say will matter. It's so many young woman who depend on a young man to make them happy and love themselves, but it won't work. Learn to love your inner and outer beauty. Don't compare yourself to anyone, it's only one of you. Embrace your beauty and understand that big, small, tall, short whatever you are, You are different and beautiful and don't let anyone tell you differently.

-Kennedi M.

"Darkness"

"It's so dark, everywhere I go. 

I try to find the light but all I see is the darkness. I feel the pain controlling me.

But I don't know what it is, 

My world is dark, and no one sees it.

I wonder if anyone even cares,

I'm tired of talking, because it seems to not work.

I'm tired of trying to be positive but I only get negative results.

I'm wishing to disappear and never come back. 

I asked myself sometimes "Why am I here?" And never get a answer.

I'm ready to be done with the pain and the dark storms.

I'm ready to see the light and be happy. 

The only way I can see this is if I move out of everyone's way and stop taking up Space. 

I'm ready to go! 

-A girl who's tired of life and going through hard times by herself. 

By: Kennedi M.

"Prayer"

No matter what happens through out the day. Remind yourself to leave it up to God. Trust him and let go!

-Kennedi M.

"I can't get through this by myself"

I will never let anyone have that much power over me. No matter what they do to me or how they make me feel, can't nobody steal me from me. They may hurt my feelings and ect. but me, as a young woman will get up on my feet and have my head held high, and walk with strength on my back. I know God is with me and no one can tell me differently.
 I know and learned that when I don't have no one I have God. I been going through a hard time but I haven't yet given up, and I won't. I'm always trying to explain myself to people thinking they will understand but like I have said in other posts, no one will understand unless they have been through that situation.
 I am here to tell you that you may feel like your storm is eating you up, or your storm is taking control over you but you must stop thinking that now. Bring your hands together and ask the man above to be with you. All that pressure you have been feeling give it to God. He is the one who is in control, not you. You trust him and let go. Stop putting yourself through this and trying to handle it on your own. Can't no one do anything by themselves.
-Kennedi M.

"They come and go"

Something I learned over the weekend was, you can't depend on anyone. And you can't think that everyone is going to be there forever. No matter how much you have been there for the person, you have to accept that people come and go. We may not like it and it may hurt but maybe God is preparing us for something. I used to tell people things that were on my mind, things I was going through, feelings I was feeling and ect. But I also learned that no one will understand unless they have been through that situation or felt the way I was feeling. You also can't trust a lot of people. Whenever I have a problem I don't tell my business to anyone anymore, I go to God and talk to him. His the one who will be there all the time. I'm not saying that talking to someone is a bad thing or you shouldn't do it, but just be careful who you share it with and what you say. Some things are your business and only your business. 

-Kennedi M. 

"God is Good"

"I refuse..."

Sometimes I think to myself "Why am I always called mean and Why do people say I always have a attitude?" I thought about it and it's because I refuse to be disrespected and walked over, I refuse to let anyone control me or treat me wrong. I am a caring person and I never ever want to hurt anyone. But sometimes I do have to say things in order for people to understand that I don't like it and I would appreciate it, if they don't disrespect me. I have learned that when I do say it nicely they still countiue to disrespect me or walk over me. And if that is the case then I will distance myself.

-Kennedi M. 

That's your Woman...

Young Men and Men...

 Respect your woman, you need to make sure she feels safe and feels loved. She needs to feel beautiful and feel that you're there for her not just to be there but there because you care and because you want to have a future with her, you want to make memories with her. Make your woman feel special. Don't just look on the outside but look on the inside. Tell her she's beautiful inside and out, and mean it. Understand that she isn't perfect and neither are you. Your woman will have flaws but it's ok because we all do. Accept her for who she is, and don't let her feel any less of herself.
 When she needs a shoulder to cry on, be there to wrap your arms around her and let her know that everything will be ok. Remind her the positive things and motivate her. When you have disagreements, listen to each other and work it out. Understand what a "Relationship" is, and know that no relationship is perfect. When your down, your woman will be there and when she's down you will be the man, and catch her when she falls. Love her curves, the texture of her hair, love the shape of her lips and the shape of her face. That's your woman, love her and appreciate her.
-Kennedi M.

"Ready for fall..."

    

Black girls rock!!!

They Question...

I think it's crazy how we walk around with someone judging us everyday. They judge you for the shoes you wear, the clothes on your back, how your hair looks and ect. Then people question why there are so many teens committing suicide, depressed or doing things that they don't even realize their doing. I feel the bullying can come from a lot of things. You never know what someone is going through at home, you never know what someone is going through at school, you just never know what someone is going through in life period. I wish people would think before they speak sometimes but we don't. Sometimes we say stuff because we think it's funny or cool, but deep down inside it can be eating someone up.
I know when you hang around negative people you start doing things thats not you, like I said in my last post. I won't write this and say I'm perfect because I'm not, I have talked about people but haven't we all? Sometimes we don't even mean to or notice that we are...
-Kennedi M.

I asked myself...

"I have been moving backward instead of moving forward, I asked myself "Why" then I looked at who I was hanging with and who I was surrounded by. I saw myself not being the person I am, I was being someone ugly, someone I didn't like. I saw the independence leaving me, and I felt people being in my business, I felt I was doing too much and was frustrating myself. Sometimes you do have to take a step back and remind yourself who you are and where you come from. I know the things I was doing and saying wasn't Kennedi. When you hang with someone for a long time and you see that they are changing into someone you don't want to be around, then distancing yourself is the best thing to do in my opinion.
-Kennedi M.

"Keep a white dress and color heels in your closet."

"Queens"

"Just Trust Him"

I know you feel so alone, I know your on your knees, I know it seems like you have no one, like all your friends have turned their back on you. Trust me, I know! But let me tell you something about the Man above. He is so good! If you don't have him in your life, then that's your choice. He is everything to me. I can't even tell you all the things he has done for me. He has always been here and kept me going no matter what. (And I'm not on here trying to brag) but what I'm trying to say is to TRUST HIM. He will understand you, He will be there, When no one else is there for you...he is, When you feel like his taking to long to get you out that storm, remember it's on his time. We must TRUST HIM and leave it to him. After you pray, let it go. You will get through it!

-Kennedi M.  

"I'm proud to be black"

Black is beautiful! I love this picture so much!!

-Kennedi M.

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"Women"

Have a good week!!

You make it to the finish line! You get through that storm! You may have to pull over and get yourself together and that's ok, but as soon as you get yourself together, you get back out there and finish that race. Have faith in God and believe that he got you, with him you are going to be ok. Just pray! 

-Kennedi M.

*Have a wonderful week and let the past be the past, forgive and ask for forgiveness.* :)

"Queen"

"When they see you bettering yourself they try to put you down." 

-Kennedi M.

Pain on my back...

Whenever you get to a point in your life when it's too hard to stand, then you kneel. You kneel while you pray you kneel while your cry. You kneel when you need to. I know sometimes we carry to much pain on our back and it gets to hard to stand up and keep our head up. People are asking you to pray for them but don't realize that you need someone to pray for you! No matter what I always remind myself that "God is here and it's not on my time but on Gods time." I know when we go through that hard time we question where God is but don't realize that his in control. We just have to do what we have to do, to get through that storm. (Trust in him and everything is going to be alright). **Number one thing to do is pray (to talk to him)**

-Kennedi M. 

Choose Wisely!

I Trust You by: James Fortune

                                                                     

                 

Even though I can't see
And I can't feel your touch
I will trust you lord
How I love you so much
Though my nights my seem long
And I feel so alone
Lord my trust is in you
I surrender to you
So many painful thoughts
Travel through my mind
And I wonder how
I will make it through this time
But I trust you
Lord it's not easy
Sometimes the pain in my life
Makes you seem far away
But I'll trust you
I need to know you're here
Through the tears and the pain
Through the heartache and rain
I'll trust you
Everything that I see
Tells me not to believe
But I'll trust you lord
You have never failed me
My past still controls me
Will this hurt ever leave?
I can only trust you
No one else like you do
I can

I will
I must
Trust you
I will
Trust you 
I will
Trust you 
I'll trust you
I will 
God will make a way

Tears...

What do you mean you don't want to cry or you don't like crying? You have feelings embrace those feelings. Don't hold them back. Be ready to see the reddest in your eyes and your eyelashes wet. Why would you let your feelings stay inside when they need to be let go of? Don't listen to what someone negative as to say. Everyone has feelings and everyone cries, just because they don't want to claim they do doesn't mean they don't. Sometimes when we let go of those feelings we been holding inside, we can start finding happiness. Sometimes we may notice that when we do cry, were crying for along time and tears just keep falling down, but let them fall down your precious face. It's ok to cry and it's ok to have feelings. Let them fall...
-Kennedi M.

Bag Lady...

Bag lady you gone hurt your back

Dragging all them bags like that

I guess nobody ever told you

All you must hold on to

Is you.

-Erykah Badu (Bag Lady)

Friends....

Sometimes I don't think people understand me when I say, I like being alone. I don't like to party every weekend and I don't like to hang out much. I may go a few days without my phone or being on instagram/tumblr or other social sites, but it's because I feel everyone needs time to themselves. I need time to collect all my thoughts and talk to God, I need peace where I don't have to be stressed out. I need to write goals down and think about my next step. I don't think people can focus on themselves when they don't have "Me" time and thats maybe part of the reason why you have so much anger and hate. People misunderstand me as being "Selfish" or "Rude", "Misconstrued" or "Unwelcoming."
But really I'm just being "Me." I always get asked "Why are you always in the house?" (Mostly family) but the answer to that is I'm not, I get asked "Where are your friends at?" I look around and say I don't know. I feel like everyone is always trying to be known. Always trying to get 100 likes on a picture or have 2000 followers/friends on social sites. Their always trying to be at every party because they feel that their going to miss something. I understand going to parties is fun and I think people should party and enjoy themselves. But why every party?? ....I don't know maybe it's just me. I don't want to be around people like that. I have friends and I love them very much but I don't talk to them everyday, Their not going to always be at my house, I won't hang with them every weekend and I hope they respect that. I enjoy my independence and not having to depend on anyone, I know myself and know what I need to do, but understand I'm not perfect and I do make mistakes. I keep positivity around me the best I can. 
-Kennedi M.

I respect myself...

I did everything to make it work.

But why didn't it?

You told me you loved me and that you cared for me.

I thought it would last.

But why didn't it?

We had our ups and downs, but it seemed like you couldn't handle it.

We had those haters and people that liked us.

We ignored them, until it started affecting us.

It was so hard when you put your all into someone and it all goes down. 

Then it seems like our situation is all around.

I don't understand why people can't mind their own business.

When we stopped talking it seemed like you didn't care. 

Until I was at my locker or walking by and I see you stare. 

I know the relationship had to go, because I refuse to be told.

I am a young woman with a father in heaven, i don't need no man disrespecting me. 

I see the girls when I walk by hearing a boy called them the word that rhymes with pitch.

I listen to see what they say but all I hear is laughing like that's ok.

I have respect for myself and a lot of people think I'm rude.

It's like when you don't say nothing back they will continue.

I have been called selfish, ungrateful, spoiled, mean and feisty. Trust me I have been called more.

That boy told me he liked my respect but seem to hate it when we are around "friends."

I don't understand why you were trying to fit in? 

-Kennedi M. 

Move on

We sometimes have to leave people behind, because their on a different level then you are on. When we have something going for ourselves, you have to surround yourself with positive, encouraging people. Even if we don't want to move on and let go, we may have to in order to move to the next step or be happy. When they realize you aren't playing games anymore and serious about goals you want to accomplish they will catch up. If they don't, then leave them alone, and do you!  

-Kennedi M.

Yes Queen